It's going to be 2 years

This October 4th it will be 2 years since we got our place here in TN. Wow time does fly. One thing I hate to admit is ..it still isn't finished. In my mind it's always been, well what else do we have to do! But looking around it's sad that we haven't done more. One reason is, the one that is a good one...money... fact is we kind of ran out of it and until we get the other 2 acres sold in Crossville a lot will be on stand still. But there really isn't any excuse for not getting a lot more done than we have.
The original plan was, while the house was empty we would do the floors and get the walls done and then get the furniture out of storage (in Crossville). Good plan while it lasted. The "plan" was to do all this before Jim started his "job" with the RR. Then, oops like all best made plans he had to leave earlier than we had planned. So, here it is going on two years and we haven't finished the part we started or the other rooms. We had the floors done right away and that would have been a project if we did them ourselves. If your familiar with Manufactured homes they have strips where the wall boards meet. The plan was get rid of them, tape them and paint over it. Good plan ,then the walls would look like a regular house walls. Problem was Jim is not a taper. Bless his heart he worked hard to do the kitchen, LR and hall and though we sanded and sanded ,primed and painted (3 coats) you can still see where he taped. Not being regular type wallboard this could be the reason. I've noticed that now a few of them are cracked. So it looks like I'll have to start all over. Heavy sigh! Heck we haven't even put up the rest of the trim. More Sighs!
We should have gotten this done after almost two years. Now, having all this time on my hands I'm looking around and getting very depressed about it, and wondering what the heck I've done. Maybe instead of putting what we have into this I should have used that as a down payment and purchased a new double wide. Well, it's kind of too late for that. Between furniture and other things I've already got $10,000 in this one. I'm not really unhappy with it as I love the floor plan and it really is all we need. It's just that I'm unhappy to see we have not finished what we have started. I had figured while Jim was in Oklahoma I would just continue on myself and at least paint. Where is my mind here. I'm thinking like a "young person" and I now realize I have a young mind in an old body. I just don't have the strength now that we have moved "stuff" in here to do the work alone, and with him now going for three weeks at a time it will have to be me alone to continue...so much for plans. I think Jan was right the other day when she said I was depressed, I am.
One thing I have learned the hard way...I will not remove the rest of the strips, unless I am putting another type up. No more of this taping crap. The wallboard that is on the walls is the type that is papered and it has kind of a sheen on it and I think that is a lot of the problem even with two coats of oil based primer we are having trouble with it. I guess before I get too depressed and give up entirely I have to organize my life and try to get my old body to think it's as young as my mind and this fall once it is cooler I will try to do this, myself. It's that or it will never get done unless I can pay someone to come in and finish what we started. I can't expect Jim to come home each month after being gone and work on the house with me. I'm sure his heart isn't into doing any of this either, or both of us would have had it done by now.
This is a three bedroom home but in reality it's a one bedroom home with a non finished scrapbook/computer room and a storage room. When the men did the floors we made the mistake of telling them the strips would be coming off. So in the SB room they just broke off the bottoms of them as they put in the laminate and trim so that still looks like hell and we will have to put some kind of strips back on the walls in there. Right now we have furniture covering them LOL but I know it's there. The storage room I have set up as a kind of den with my old couch, bookcases and sewing machine, organ and whatever other furniture I couldn't figure on where to put stored in there. I'm afraid it will be a challenge to do and like I said this old body doesn't have the strength to move that "stuff" to get at the walls. To hire someone it's going to cost me over $1000 to paint and I still have to move the stuff. Groan. Yup I'm depressed. I look at all this stuff that needs doing and I just want to go back to bed and sleep. I didn't used to be this way but then I wasn't this age either. I can remember when I'd think nothing of moving furniture, refinishing furniture painting or whatever, David's dad never knew what he would find when he came home from work. Now I have the time and not the umph! Sad!

Oh well maybe I can get my mind to think it's young this fall and get this stuff done so when Jim does come home he'll be surprised. I've got to organize my little mind scrap on certain days and house stuff on others and maybe even rest on a few. We'll see. At least when I get the place finished I'd be able to invite someone in and not have to live like a hermit.....like I have a lot of people to invite....lol but you never know maybe I will have someone to invite.

Later Scarlett maybe tomorrow, sigh!