Bummer day for blogging

This isn't a fun day for blogging. I recently learned my Cousin David from Scotland is sick. It's his personal thing so I'm not going into it except to say in my heart I know he will be OK and I'm praying for him.

Today was the day for Jim's cat scan which we did first thing this AM now we have 4 days to think about what the results will be. The Doctor had found a gray area on his x-rays and just wants the scan to make sure there is nothing wrong. So we are praying for him too.

On the way back we stopped to pick up copies of our lab results. Both of us need vitamin D and are on a mass two week dose of it. (as soon as we get to the pharmacy) Then they recommend Caltrate. Not so bad I guess. The rest of Jim's tests looked good so I'm hoping this means good for the cat scan too.

Now the bad girl is me. Loose weight with more exercise cut down on starches and sugars. Well nothing new here. Thyroid is OK. So much for the tired bit, yes cut the sugars and starches and exercise and that should help. Then I read further, which by the way no one said anything about this part. C-Reactive Protein, Cardiac 4.76 Flag High Relative risk for future Cardiovascular Event. Low is less than 1:00 Average is 1:00-3:00 and High is over 3:00 so having 4.76 is a no no. Now to me that doesn't help my depression a bit. I'll be paranoid thinking all my chest pains and upset stomach heartburn is that I'm going into Cardiac Arrest. Nothing on Jim's so I guess that means he is going to out live me. Now I'm also having second thoughts on the Celebrex which there is still controversy on the high risk of stroke or heart attacks in women, even though the drug company won that law suit. Yes I know I should call the Dr. about that, but in my depressed state I'm being an ostrich so I shouldn't complain about it.

If I really put down my thoughts on all this, one would really panic, so I won't.

The kicker is New Years is coming and it's the anniversary of my Dad's death and that David and Dawn are so far from us, so we can't visit with them either.

I'm thinking that with Jim going to be away from Dec 4 to whenever, even that fun is gone. At least the first year here we still had fun and last year we had our lights up Thanksgiving and even the tree so we were in some kind of Christmasy mood. This year it seems like the spirit of Christmas has left me. But that's what miracles are for, so who knows.

Well that's enough blackness for today so Scarlett do your thing....Tomorrow is another day.