Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow

Today was doctor Day and last night I did a Rant and Rave blog which got posted by mistake in the Kitty's blog not mine and when I found it I deleted it. Who wants to hear all that crap. Any way summing up the day, it went just as I surmised. Early AM blood work a 2hr break, then return for "the visit" Jim was routine but I knew mine wasn't going to be. Sugar OK at least to my statistics and no other comments in the bad nature made on it. I had to confess about the pain I've been in. My hip and leg are now a chronic throbbing pain and the one in my hip joint causes me to limp all the time,have problems sitting ,standing, laying, driving and just about anything so I knew it was time to fess up on the truth to the Doctor. The x-rays confirmed what I feared and a visit to the orthopedic surgeon suggested. By the look of fear on my face he knew I would balk at a hip replacement which he said was probably what the surgeon would suggest and what I dreaded to hear. He said just because they recommended it it was still my choice and they still might find some alternatives...temporarily. The old injections with the two inch needle aaarrrgggghhhhh, Glucosamine ect. and a new thing they are doing to knees which might just work on hips that is not surgery. I think... hell that's when I needed Jim as from when the doctor sat down and said the cartilage was just about gone my mind shut down... I dazed through the rest. He did give me some new meds which I have to get tomorrow at the base and have no idea what it is right now as I left the rx in the car. LOL I also have some gel to rub on for some relief. He says it is two fold here as I have Arthritis in the hip and Sciatica down the leg to the knee.

I have no idea what I will do at this point 1. I don't do pain...aches yes, pain, no 2. Since I have a phobia of hospitals and any surgery mine or someone else's that thought scares the &*#$ out of me as it's in my head I will never come home again. Yeah I know idiotic, but it's there. Logic says if it has to be sometime now is the time before I age any more and it gets riskier. I'm not at all logical when it comes to this stuff. I just want to be an ostrich and bury my head and it will be all solved.

Well there I ranted and raved and now I'll wait for them to call back with my appointment and then do some more worrying. LOL

Hmm they shoot horses don't they? Why is that running through my mind. I won't say brain as I don't have one. I'm off to take a nap and hope the gel works a bit. Maybe tonight if I can sit long enough I can design or scrap or something.
Later